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Crafts

One thing I like do is building and crafting. I do all sorts of things. Mainly, I do leatherwork. I make sword frogs (the thing that attaches the blade sheath to the belt) leather buckles and catches, gun holsters, belts, knife sheaths, leather-clad shields, clothing, and even a doll. I taught myself how to make chain mail but, it's too much trouble. One of my philosophies is that if they don't have exactly what you want or it's too expensive, either make it yourself or take what they have and alter it. This; however, lead to my next philosophy: some things are too much trouble to make yourself. I do sketches, drawings, and oil painting, all of which I have been trying to get back into. Also, when the movies started comming out, I have made some lightsabers, but I havn't done that for years; don't call me a geek. I also do knitting when I'm board, but not very often. LAUGH AND DIE!!!!!!!!!!

Wolves

My favorite animal; the intelligent, majestic, and spiritual brother of man.  The only other creature I would rather be born as.  I am pretty much obsessed with it and have been for most of my life.  When I was very little, wolves were in my dreams (even with out me ever seeing even a picture of a real one), running, sneaking, protecting, and talking to me (not so much in words, but with looks).  I grew up with dogs (my little furry brothers and sisters) all around me and picked up their habits, their communication, and their reactions.  In the wolf, I found the most clear and undiluted form of the canine.  Yet, more importantly, I found the essence of true man; and old spirit that shows the true ways of life.  The native tribes in North America saw the life of the wolf and learned from it and adapted their ways to it.  They learned from its political higherarchy in the pack, its hunting tactics, and the way it protected and lovingly cared for its family.  The Cherokee even copied the way the wolf walked to avoid frostbite in the snow.  Wolves come in many forms from different ranges, but are still the same species.  There are currently 24 recognized subspecies; 8 of which are now extinct (and all were from North America).  The most commonly known is the gray wolf/eastern timber wolf, Canis lupis lycones, which is the most common subspecies.  Some other examples are the red wolf, Canis lupis rufus, nearly extinct now, but once ranged through much of the SE. USA; the artic wolf, C. l. arctos / tundrarum, the white wolf of the artic and winter regions (also the largest of the species), the C. l. columbianus wolf (the classic bad-guy wolf of all the stories and old pictures) which is the black wolf.  However, the differences between these subspecies are subtle, and nowhere near as extreme and its one subspecies dog, C. l. familularis.  The wolf ranges from 3'-5' in length (not including tail), 50-150 lbs (some captive individuals have reached as far as 200 lbs.), and can run up to 55 mph (highest speed on record for sp.) for long periods of time (tecnically, biological long is 1 min. or longer) (the famed cheeta's speed bursts of 65 mph can only last between 15-30 seconds).  They hunt in a cooperative fashion using intelligent and tricky tactics.  They keep a rigid social order that decides who's in charge, who eats first (no matter who's kill), who initiates the howling, and mating.  The fact that most wolves mate for life is an awesome truth, but even more interesting is that it is not just a blind drive; the mate actually insures that the other can not mate with any other.  For instance, if a lower ranking female is in season, the Alpha female will AT ALL TIMES be between the Alpha male and the other female; forcing them to stay separate.  The Alpha male will do the same with other males.  In zoos and breeding facilities, it has been noticed that the male has absolutely no problem mating with another female when his mate is not around and vice versa.  The wolf even possesses a double coat: a beautiful over coat that can peddle off minor rain and dew, and a dense, soft under layer.  These are so efficient in preventing heat loss that snow won’t even melt on their fur.  Wolves are a necessary part of the ecosystem.  Simply put, if you get rid of the predator, the prey continues to grow until it over-crowds its environment, drinks and pollutes the streams, starves itself, and weakens the gene pool by leaving in the sick, deformed, and ill-equipped.  Wolves go for what is easiest and safest to it and the pack and, therefore, only kill the young, slow, injured, sick, and old.  This in effect helps the prey's population only filled with the best individuals.  When the wolves were killed off in America (for the most part) its landscapes started to change.  Many trees, shrubs, and plants stopped growing (eaten by the new abundance of grazers, browsers) and others replaced them that were kept back by the previous plants and yet were unappetizing to the grazers.  Some scientists have linked the high out-put of methane as produced in cattle and their staggering numbers and close proximity, to contributing to the harming of the ozone layer.  In many areas, dear season is year round because the area is over-run with them.  These have the same digestive system as cattle along with moose, caribou, elk, buffalo,... so they are also harmful to the environment in too large of numbers.  So I say in a stretch out way: take on the duty of the wolf by hitting a dear with your car and saving the environment.

Away with the technical stuff and on to the spiritual.  This creature is known for many things and for spiritual qualities and knowledge it possesses: Facing the end of one's cycle with dignity and courage, Death and rebirth, Spirit teaching, Guidance in dreams and meditations, Instinct linked with intelligence, Social and familial values, Outwitting enemies, Ability to pass unseen, Steadfastness, Skill in protection of self and family, Taking advantage of change.  The wolf has long been associated with the dog star Sirius, according to ancient legends, the teachers of old originated form there and this is one reason the wolf is associated with teaching.  The wolf is also a teacher that returns to its pack after extensive forage to tell everyone about new observations and experiences. People with the wolf spirit live in a close-knit family circle without sacrificing their independence.  A wolf chooses a partner to whom it is faithful throughout its life.  You go out of your way to avoid a fight.  However, a fight can easily be put down with subtle changes in your tones, a look, or changes in body stance or position show when someone may be tredding too far.  He is a teacher for others to understand life better and find their own path as well as teaching and understanding yourself.  When the wolf howls at the Moon, it identifies with its power, its spiritual energy, and the unconscious through which all knowledge can be accessed.

One thing that I would like to point out in wolves and those who have the wolf spirit is that wolves do not have rage.  Rage is strong and uncontrolled anger.  It is unhealthily built up inside you and then all bursts out at once.  With rage, you are emotionally weak and will lash out at anyone, blinded in your desire and are just as likely to bring harm to friend as foe; you don't care who you hurt; you're venting your rage.  This is however, a trait at times found in some dogs.  Wolves don't rage, they have purposeful anger.  They don't let their anger toward one individual sour their interactions with their friends.  However, a wolf never forgets who hurts him and they will wait until they get that individual alone somewhere (that's why they say in wolf hybrid books, that if someone ever hurt or terrorize them as a puppy, to never leave them alone with that individual again).  On this note of worry, a healthy, well fed wolf would never harm an individual that did no harm or threat to it.  The only thing that wolves fear is a human.  This is why they are so hard to spot in the wild (aside from the fact that humans killed most of them off);  if a human comes into the woods, the wolf will smell them and automatically go in the opposite direction; usually long before they are spotted.  One can live in pretty deep into a wolf pack's range their whole life and still never see or encounter one.  Dogs, have no natural fear of humans, which in some ways makes them even more dangerous.  In the past, wolves have been made the villains in most cultures, for once the range of the wolf was only out-done by that of the human.  Among the ancient civilizations, the wolf was considered a natural and relatively good animal; given the best of traits throughout mythology and stories.  Many indigenous peoples were hunters as the wolves and praised it as their brother.  To the Romans, it was praise with giving life to Romulus and Remus. Also, it showed up in many human raising tales (ex: India's Mogli) and in many creation legends (Viking, Native Americans,..)  In nearly all ancient cultures that use animals in the titles of their ranking systems and their societies, wolves are always in the higher ranks.  Despite this creature's structured, resourceful, and kind nature, once the northern European people became primarily herders, the thoughts toward them started taking a dreadful turn.  Although wolves only picked off the sick and weak of the herd, back in medieval times there was no quality control, and that meant that any meat loss was still a loss.  From then on there was a mass slaughter of wolf-kind over livestock, bounties, or even just for fun.  This spread to the rest of Europe and the others.  The wolf that was once held so dear, was quickly being eradicated.  Stories were made to insure that they had links with the devil and would steal children out from their beds.  The stories and fears were carried over by our ancestors when they came to the Americas, event to the point of government endorsed programs for their pelts and eradication.  These ignorant men, filled with hatred for the beast, would hunt to find the den, so that there would be the most wolves there and kill them and strip them of their pelts and, in another act of cruelness, take any puppies too small for pelting and bash their brains out against a rock or tree.  Showing that it was not just for sporting and trade (which they would have left the cubs to grow up so they could have pelts for next year), this was for the joy of killing.  Aside from the native peoples of the land, wolves were new America's holy war.  It was the evil dragon if its day.  Yet to this day in America, there has never been a confirmed killing of a human by a healthy and totally wild wolf.  Only hearsay, folk-lore, and those who thought it would make a good story.  All the stories were a body was found were shown to be caused by a bear or mountain lion or such (ex: wolves don't put their kill in trees...)

The wolf is a beautiful animal; strong, fast, intelligent, and loving.  I envy its simple and pure life.  It is a creature that everybody can learn from


My Favorate Blades
I have more but these are my favorates. I didn't want to bother with taking a picture and scanning it and stuff so, I went to one of the sites I bought most of them from and used their pics with a few modifications. By the way, these are from the By The Sword website; in case your interested. (click the pic to go to the website.)
  Swords

One big infatuation is bladed weapons. I love swords, knives, axes and such. I myself have an evolving collection meaning that I get one sword and, if it has some traits I like and some I don't, the next one has enhanced versions of the traits I liked and avoids the ones I didn't (sort of like selective breeding). What you do is you experiment with different features to see if they work for you. Once, I got a Scottish basket-hilt back sword (just like it sounds, a basket of steel that covers and protects your hand). I thought that it would be a great choice for a fighter because of the lack of the worry of getting your fingers cut off; however, I found that the steel basket not only hinders injury by your opponent but, also your own movement and can really bruise your rist.This goes on until I get one that is purfect for me in weight, length, point, grip, balance, and ofcoarse looks. My current choice of blade is my 8th century viking sword: not too long, very light and quick, great for cutting and not bad for thrusting, nice folded steel blade, and not a bad looker either. Only problem is the scarce hand protection. I would like to learn how to use it well but, ofcoarse I have a little trouble a place to practice and people to practice with. There is ofcoarse the S.C.A. but, they require the fighters use rattan blades and have to buy or make expensive suits of armor. This is way past my budget. I can't even afford to get everything I need to do the fencing.

Fire Arms

What first got me into them is my Civil War reenacting hobby. You can easily be drawn to them if you can get a chance to use them without the issues of hitting targets and worring about shooting something you don't want to. In reenacting, you just shoot for the shear purpose of the bang and the smoke. After a couple rounds of realizing that your not going to die when you pull the trigger and the you don't have to worry about kick, you begin to like it. It becomes a light and sound show for you. Ofcourse, I started off with the old type black powder revolvers. When you go through the trouble of loading the powder, packing it down, and applying percussion cap to make it spark, you become very familiar with the basics of how a fire arm works. With these, I also practiced doing tricks and fast draw. I currently have a Colt 1851 Navy, Colt 1860 Army, Remington 1858 Army, and an 1861 Le Mat (Cavalry model). As far as modern pistols go, I have 3: Smith & Wesson .44 Mag 629 and .38 Spcl Chief's Special, and a .22 LR Walther P22. When I turned 21, I bought my first cartridge-firing revolver. It was a Smith & Wesson 629 44 Magnum revolver. I was turned to this kind after seeing a "Dirty Harry" movie marathon and (during the 60's, 70's, and early 80's at least) its reputation of being "...the most powerfull handgun in the world."

Furries

I have reciently gotten into the fur world; mainly because of the art and the good friend I have made in it.  No, I haven't gone to any fur conventions nor am I into group "yiffing" or other bazar things associated with them.  More along the lines of loving and drawing the art work (also easier to draw than humans), stories, some of the good costumes, and generally having an intrest in animals and their traits anyway.  I have been lucky enough to find some fursons that are Christians and try to incorporate it.  I also have noted some that base their animals on the characteristics atributed to them by native Americans lending them a more spiritual and wholesome identity.

Furries

All encompassing, not caring about race, sex, age, lifestyle, or social background. All furries come together just for the reason of being furries. They are all accepting that’s why they use the rainbow colors as one of their symbols; everyone’s accepted. Most furries are bi because they believe that the sex of the person doesn’t matter, it’s the soul that matters, though most still have their preferences. Furries form huge online communities. If given the chance, they prefer to live in homes with several other furs or furry singles or couples; a small community within itself. Furs don’t segregate the ages. One would be just as open and down to earth with a 14 y.o. fur as they would a 40 y.o.. Most furs hide the knowledge of their ‘furriness’ from all accept other furs online. It is kept very in shadow to the point one fur could be living next door to, going to school with, or even be best friends with another furry and never know about it. Aside from the normal shunning of people who are different, the reason for such secrecy is simple: fear of misinterpretation. Furs are afraid that some might have bad preconceived notions of what a furry is, and as you will see, that these notions are extreme enough to hurt a person. Many mistakenly associate furries with bestiality (just because of their love for animals), being sex maniacs with wild and unusual orgies or ‘weirdoes’ that actually think they are the animal. Another rumor spreader that is well known to give furs a bad name is an episode of CSI called "Fur and Loathing" in which they portrayed furries as 30+, animalistic, ultra nymphomaniacs. As in several other cases, CSI got it wrong for the point of making a good drama. These things people perceive to be "furry traits" are no more abundant in the furry community than in the rest of society. Basically, it’s all an ignorant lie. There may be a few furs that do things like that, but no more than would be in a worker’s union or glee club. In general, furries are pretty much normal, all be it, eccentric and affectionate people. One very notable quality of furries is that they are very affectionate and tend to be very physical with their emotions; hugging on passers by and especially each other. In fact, furries have developed their own inner culture of words, greetings, and common demeanor among themselves. For example, a fur can walk up to another unannounced and hug or give a belly rub or scratch (a.k.a. scritches) to them, without the other viewing it as anything out of the ordinary. Furries do give into the base instinct of touch. Humans, along with most other mammals, use touch as one of their forms of communication. It’s a way of assuring peace and a sense of safety and comfort, and has a very calming quality to anybody with the acceptation of victims of physical abuse or those having some other social avoidance complexes. Some basic traits, other than the affection that may or may not be incorporated into the lifestyle or constitute a furry are one or more of the following: finding oneself to have a love for animals (this isn’t to say that furries are potential PETAs, for many furries hunt and wear leather and fur) and especially a strong affinity for one in particular, using animal spirit guides as in many native cultures, enjoying and even producing anthropomorphic/furry art (animals with humanoid features ex: standing on 2 legs, wearing clothes, talking,…), loving cartoons and movies including or consisting of "furries" (ex: Disney’s RobinHood, Tailspin, Balto,..), wearing or even making fursuits (like the costumes worn by characters at theme parks), Creating and building up characters/personas (a.k.a. fursona) to explain what they are and what they play kinda like an online role playing game, which many furries do role play their fursona in the online chatting and such. Their fursuit, for those that care to have one, is usually based on their fursona. Some evidence that might cue you into a person being a furry are them wearing a collar or even at times incorporating rainbow colors (not just for the homosexual community) or have paw print, or animal decals, stickers, or clothing, and collecting stuffed animals (plushies). Also, many furries have a love of raves or at least the idea of raves and glowstix. Furries account for a large percent of drug-free ravers. And, for some unperceived reason, they prefer boxers.

Outside of personal meetings by chance or organized online, one place furries can gather and enjoy all the qualities of furries are at fur cons. These are conventions for furries with venders, artists, games, entertainment, dances, and suiter play and parades. Much like a comic book, sci-fi, or anime convention (most of which are also furry friendly) and just as abundant. There, they are free to glomp (like a hug/tackle), hug on, chase, dance, snuggle, furpile (like a dog pile, but no pain or malice involved), and a chance for costumers to display their fursuits. Basically, furries are normal people that you never might guess has a little wackiness in them.

Music
I have always made lyrics and melodies (I can't say writen because I have just recently in the last 5 years started to write them down). Around December 2002, I decided one night to collect all my songs from the many different notebooks, napkins, and loose wrinkled pieces of paper into one notebook. After discarding songs and pieces of them that lead nowhere, I realized that I had nearly enough good songs to make an album. All these songs are Christian I noticed too. Being a preformer was something I never really thought to go after. My main ambition over the years was to try to get into medical school. The thing is that I'm not going to go lax in my studies to try to pursue a musical career. Yet, if it seems that the med. school wasn't ment to be, that will be what I go after. There are, of coarse, several problems with the music. One: I don't have a band and, for the way I have writen the lyrics and the beat, I need one. Two: I can play guitar and make some melodies but, I'm not good enough to play the sounds that play in my head when I think about the songs. I'm not even good enough to match a simple chord to the melody. Lastly, I am very self-critical and though other people seem to like it (I think they're just being nice) I think my voice is a little nasally. Of course, one plus I have is that this didn't stop many others. Some big and popular people made up for a so-so voice with style and stage presence ie: John Lennon, Ringo Star, Jimmy Duranti, Hank Williams Jr, and McJagger... When you think about it, as far as choosing people for a choir (or now-a-days American Idol), these guys wouldn't have a chance with their voices. One neet / wierd thing is that, sence all my life I've listened and sang along with my favorate entertainers (Beatles, Newsboys, Savage Garden, U2, David Bowie, Rod Stewart, Queen, Bee Gees,...), I have an accent when I sing. I don't do it on purpose and the only way to not do it is to try to do country singing with a heavy accent (which doesn't always work). I don't have one when I talk (unless I'm tired or sleepy) and I never really developed a southern accent, but I can do it if I try. I have had to change the rhythm and stuff to some songs because some of them were out of style. In general, most of the songs are in the style of the Newsboys and Savage Garden while a few are in the style of Queen and Southern rock.


An anime furry of me (aint I cute)

Went to Anime Weekend Atlanta and saw a guy who does art for mangas doing portraits for people.  I got to stay and watch him do them for 4 people (about 25 minutes each person) and in doing so, learned how to do it myself (I can copy anything I watch someone do or taste a few times).  Basically, he only looked at the person for hair style and eye color and the rest seemed systematic.  I also have a manga art book that I'm looking at and am hoping to do more anime; I especially want to use this character.  Only thing is DANG those markers are expensive!



My Guitar
Fender "1996 Ventures tribute Stratocaster". Sounds very different from other Strats and that's why I like it. I also have a generic-looking acoustic.
 
   
 

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